The Schmurtz When she is there, sometimes It fills me.
When she goes, again, I miss her.
Human beings are so made that he wants what he often does not. Anyway, life Schmurtz (more commonly called life together. The word "couple" is bad enough in itself to share the concept of oneness and harmony that emerges. Thus the use of the word "Schmurtz" lets play down the case) is not always fastoche.
So now, my girl is gone to do his training since Monday. She stayed there all week for six months. Me who likes being alone sometimes, I thought "chic, I'll do whatever I want when I want, how I want! Because do not dream in Schmurtz is not at all what we want when we want. The Schmurtz requires concessions, questioned, selflessness, sacrifices and stuff like that. In our Schmurtz, she is the one that wants to eat healthy and organic to bed early, watching art films and dramas politico-social, riding a bike, hikes, drink lots of water, go to the psychiatrist, have a truck, the reasonable consumer, get rid of the superfluous ...
Me I'm the one who wants to eat fat and sweet, stay up late, watching movies authors AND brainless shit, rolling fags and albedo, making sleeping in, drinking fruit juice, going to Emmaus, to have an old DS Chapron Majesty, antiquing and second hand, crowd ...
I like to think that his criticisms are also of concern and that his presence in my life influences my way of being, consider me, to evolve. His eyes are a mirror, I find myself beautiful and kind. And she blames me is probably what he likes most (but is not aware). I like his look, I love her smiles, our laughter, crazy, our connection. Like his neuroses, Meanwhile dredger, the butch side, his freedom, his accordion, his fingers on the keys, his fingers in my mouth. Like her buttocks, feet, its flaws, its commitments, its bad faith, its ptits dishes.
I like to think that my gentle madness disrupts their organizations, my phlegm softens his passions.
So there I was alone all night. I am trays that I eat junk food in front of television stews since I discovered M6 replay. I go to bed too late on the couch not even cleansed. I forget to water the garden it m'a confié en son absence. Je fume bien trop en traînant sur le net. Je m'étais dit "chouette, la ronfleuse est partie, je vais dormir comme un bébé" et je dors (mal) avec le chien, qui en bon bouledogue français ronfle à en faire trembler les murs. Ouais, je fais tout ce que je veux mais je crois qu'elle me manque déjà !
Butchy fem
